Friday, May 28, 2010

The World Paints an Incorrect Picture of Truth

I'm a very open minded girl. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt when they are making decisions and life choices. The thing I am stuck on the most right now, is how the world, or most of us in the world, have the idea that Hollywood or being famous is the ultimate goal. I have stared Hollywood right in the eyes. I have now met and observed quite a few of those "famous" people. The sad thing is, when you look into some of their eyes, there is a gross feeling you get. There is an emptiness in their soul and it coughs up nothing but misery. These are some of the people we envy??! I had another awakening yesterday after hearing a friend at lunch tell me his ultimate life goal - which was to be famous, wearing the fur coat, and having a super model stand beside him. He wanted to be exactly like a specific famous actor. Then later that evening I ironically bumped into this famous actor in West Hollywood. I shook "Mr Famous's" hand and experienced the empty soul coughing up misery... it seriously was a crazy experience and is almost difficult to really express what I saw and what I felt. I just wish we could all have the experience I had yesterday to really understand and see that what some of us think we want, isn't exactly what we think it is. The things we think are going to make us happy may actually make us very miserable. Life lesson #278... "the world paints an incorrect picture of truth"!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Some of Us Just Aren't Like Others

So I've had my perspective changed with people. It is amazing how different a person becomes when you really get to know them. From my school perspective, today I got to know some classmates a little better. I was thinking I'm glad this isn't high school. In high school it always felt like you could only hang out or associate with the people who looked like you and dressed like you. Today I made friends with some people who I thought were very different from me, but in reality we all sort of clicked. I was the one who may have judged too soon, which doesn't happen very often, but I'm glad I was way wrong from my initial perspective.

I had a good day today, had to pull myself out of a slightly down feeling I've been having. It's funny I had no real clear idea on why I was down, I simply just felt down and for almost a week. Too long not to smile. However, I waited for myself to come out of it and I did today. The internal storm cleared and some sunny weather was a result. Now I can feel myself want to have a little more fun but still stay focused on school. I only have a few more weeks of this quarter. Once I have finals, I will only have two quarters left until I graduate... wow! How is this all flying by so fast?!

Anyway, just wanted to share a little bit on my insight of really getting to know those around you as well as yeah even I have down times for no specific reason, but it's the down times that make you really appreciate the up times!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Give YOUR Soul

In the creative world, you are constantly barraged with other people's opinions. We are all so different and uniquely programmed that it would be impossible to please everyone. One person believes this, another person believes that... So in the big picture it isn't important to please everyone, what is important is that you remember why you are doing what you are doing. The main reason why you do what you do in the creative world is PASSION! Passion is derived from your heart and your soul. So in the big picture, you should give your soul through your artistic abilities. When I express what is inside of me, I feel like I'm singing from the top of the tallest building downtown; it's my voice that I'm sharing with this world.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

The Blue Room

Yesterday the idea came to me in the "Blue Room" at FiDM. I've got it, now just to expand on it! 2010, the start of it is happening this year.

I finished a final for my Saturday class and all my midterms for my remaining four classes! Awesome feeling and I feel like I'm on top of it all for once! The ducks are behaving themselves and may just be standing in a decent, somewhat of a straight row; it's time to roll the ball and hatch that business egg. What does all this mean? haha it's code for lil elle's good idea that finally feels right. Here we go... initial stages are in order!

What's interesting is sometimes I get this feeling of where I am going to end up and then it usually happens. It will be interesting to see how this all unfolds and where I end up next year.

Thought of the day - create your own vision and keep taking steps in that direction at a good pace that is favorable to what your heart is telling you!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Give into Love or Live in Fear

Ok, so I'm always writing based on current experiences and definitely experiences of the past. Thus, good luck trying to figure out what time period I'm describing here... however this can definitely speak to most of us. From me to you...

I click the pen to write,
Passioned yet upset I'm thinking about you.
I know what I'm looking for,
but does it exist or am I stuck with you.

Those aren't harsh words,
My heart just has a beautiful voice.
We only get to live this life once,
So it's up to me and my choice.

I have my dreams, oh yes I do...
But if I have what it takes, I can live them too!
So here I am, just one step at a time,
Deciding if I should listen to your heart or mine...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

The Weight of it All

So it just hit me... I'm really happy today. I completed my final for my Computer of Fashion class that is on Saturday mornings for six hours. I think I did a really good job. It felt fabulously perfect or perfectly fabulous walking home from FiDM in the sunny 70 degree weather, jammin out to my iPod.

It further dawned on me that I have completely re-routed my previous life path. I deviated from the life of a banker to life of a fashion design student. We can always have a general plan in order, and I feel it's very important to do so, but what's even more important is to be happy day by day. For me to be happy day by day, I gave up a hell of a lot of money, but frankly I gained in happiness dollars! I was thinking that if I had stayed on the previous path I may have been purchasing a house, driving my somewhat of a dream car, not caring what I spent when shopping at the mall, dining out often... Now I am extremely frugal with little to no extra spending cash. Today, I eat Lunchables and have old carrots in my refrigerator. I make just enough money to pay rent and am still blessed to keep my cute little mini cooper. I haven't bought more than two items from the mall in over a year. What's funny about this whole picture, is I have never been HAPPIER! Weird huh? (; Sure I have crazy day to day struggles, so does everybody else. I hate to say this, but if I died tomorrow I would leave this lovely world one happy little girl, who is lucky to have amazing family and friends and whole lot of life experience! However, I love life and hope to live to 100! There are some things out of our control, but if we have a good heart and listen to it, we can smile from the inside out practically every day of our lives.

My future path is in a new direction, I have a general idea of where I want to be, but I am no longer wishing away any minutes of any day. I'm doing my best to enjoy every single one of them. I know there are days where I get really down, but I'm elated for days like today where I feel like a million bucks!

The weight of it all has been worth it!